"Every scribe or teacher of the law which is instructed unto the kingdom of heaven or has become a disciple is like a man that is a householder, who brings forth out of his treasure things new and old.’" – Jesus of Nazareth (Matthew 13:52) 

"The kingdom of God comes not with observation in the world, for the kingdom of God is within you. The days will come when people will want to see one of the days of the son of man, and they shall not see it. So they will look here and there, but do not follow them. For as the lightning lightens all parts under heaven, so shall also the son of man be in his day. But first must he suffer many things, and be rejected of his generation.-- Jesus of Nazareth (Luke 17:20-25)

The Lord God has made my mouth [pen] like a sharp sword, in the shadow of His hand has He hid me; and He has made me a polished shaft, in His quiver has He concealed me. And He said unto me: 'Thou art My servant, Israel, in whom I will be glorified. But I said: 'I have labored in vain, I have spent my strength for naught and vanity; yet surely my right is with the Lord, and my reward with my God. And now says the Lord that formed me from the womb to be His servant, to bring Jacob back to Him, and that Israel be gathered unto Him -- for I am honorable in the eyes of the Lord, and my God has become my strength.” – Isaiah 49: 2-5

Thus the modern son of man is hidden. He has been stricken and afflicted and suffers many things, which is why God has become his only strength. And even though the work he has sent before him has been rejected by his generation, it can be seen in a flash, like lightning, all over the world. And this is all according the the prophecies of Isaiah and Jesus.

The messenger seeks not to rule, but to liberate and empower humanity so that we have governments that are actually of the people, by the people, and for the people. The message he delivers is a truly righteous judgment that may help save the world, and it is designed not to condemn, but to educate; not to punish, but to correct; and not to destroy, but to save.

Educating and correcting those who lead governments, religions and industry is problematic, of course, because they naturally resent someone who is audacious enough to do that. But someone must, as was prophesied – someone who does not march to the same drummer, who exposes and rebukes self-important and self-indulgent people who abuse the power of high offices of government, religion and industry. For while many of them live in extravagant, palatial luxury, growing numbers in the vast majority struggle and suffer, and many live in poverty. 

Thus, as it was in the days of many prophets, especially Isaiah and Jesus of Nazareth, so it is today. Humanity has much the same problems, because human tendencies, without proper guidance, tend toward egotism, self-interest, greed, self-importance, self-righteousness, and even anger and violence. And all such tendencies only increase under misguided leadership.

Therefore, the modern prophet knows, as prior prophets knew, that the prophesied judgement that will save the world cannot be lukewarm. It must be firm and righteous in its chastisement of those who are greedy, hypocritical, and wrongdoing. 

At the same time, however, the judgment must also express the nurturing and compassionate feminine aspect of God, honoring the “bride” and the wisdom of Solomon, Isaiah and Jesus, and comforting the contrite ones who see the error of their ways. For the messenger, the modern son of man, is a bridegroom who has recognized his bride as a reflection of himself, and is contrite of spirit himself.

Even so, as the prophets Isaiah and Jesus foresaw, most people in the messenger's generation have rejected him. Since he declares his prophetic prerogative, religious people dismiss and label his work as heretical, academics dismiss it as either naive or wrong, and the rich dismiss it as sour grapes.

But the prophet knows that the greatest refuge of a scoundrel is patriotism, and the greatest refuge of a hypocrite is religiosity. And he knows that even though the proud and militant have claimed that their religion or nation or race or culture is superior to all others, we are all created equal, and the humble, gentle and meek shall inherit the earth.

The messenger uses Judeo-Christian terminology because Christianity is the largest religion in the world and is perhaps the most misunderstood. Therefore, he must express the true testimony of Jesus of Nazareth, as Jesus himself prophesied.

The wisdom of the ancient prophets and sages must be honored, but theirs was not the final word. There never will be a final word, for while the truth is eternal, it must be restated and clarified and renewed according to the evolved understanding of enlightened human beings, one of whom God chooses at the end of every age to serve as the principal messenger for the Spirit of truth.

Even though this message reflects the truth, it is not perfect or written in stone, and it is tinged with the author’s personal opinions, as are the writings of all authors. At the core, however, is the divinely inspired truth, which is deep in the heart and soul of all of us. For the real truth, like beauty, is in the eye of the beholder, even though it may be seen as self-evident to conscientious, compassionate people with open minds and hearts.

However, even though the messenger’s mission was to deliver the judgment, he knows he must give up his self-important, judgmental role, as all men must when they face the ultimate and inevitable truth. For he is only human, and he was sent not to rule over you, but to provide true counsel to liberate and empower you all. He has done so, and he nearly worked himself to death trying to see that you get the message.

He has delivered the message and sent his work before him, according to prophecy. It is up to the people to recognize and acknowledge it, and begin to act upon it. Then things will begin to change, and as soon as the governments of the nations are of, by and for the people, or are clearly working toward that end, you may see him sing his songs live, if he is still alive.

The Modern Son of Man

(The Principal Messenger for the Spirit of Truth)

(This article revised 5-5-2014)


Listen to me, all peoples, from far: the Lord has called me ... And the Lord God has made my mouth and pen like a sharp sword, in the shadow of God’s hand have I been hidden; and the Lord has made me as a polished arrow, in God’s quiver I have been concealed. And God said to me: 'You are My servant, Israel, in whom I will be glorified.' But I said: 'I have labored in vain, I have spent my strength for naught and vanity; yet surely my righteousness is with the Lord, and my satisfaction with my God.' And now says my God that formed me from the womb to be a loyal servant, to bring Jacob back to God, and that Israel be gathered unto God — for I am honorable in the sight  of my God, which is become my strength. Indeed, God said: 'It is not enough that you should be My servant to raise up the tribes of Jacob, and to restore the offspring of Israel. I will also give you for a light of all the nations, that My salvation may be unto the ends of the earth.' Thus said the Lord, the Redeemer of Israel, his Holy One, to him who is despised of men, to him who is abhorred of nations, to a servant of rulers: ‘They shall see, and they shall lower themselves and acknowledge God; because of the Lord that is faithful, even the Holy One of Israel, who has chosen you.’” – Isaiah 49:1-7

That is just one of many indicators in scriptures revealing that the person who fulfills prophecies is not who most Christians think he will be. The fact that he is "hidden" and "concealed" and considers the work he delivers "before him" (fulfilling Isaiah 40:10 and 62:11) as merely a show of "vanity" are crucial pieces of scriptural evidence. They reveal that he is not the same man as Jesus of Nazareth was, which is probably why such evidence has been simply ignored by those who established and perpetuated Christianity as we know it.

Those words, of course, are attributed to the modern son of man, the servant of God who now "speaks" those words at the end of the age (aeon) Jesus ushered in, as Jesus actually prophesied since he knew the prophecies of Isaiah well.

By the way, the "name" of the modern son of man, which God know when the son of man was still in the womb, means "to deliver, to liberate." And, just as the four Hebrew letters referring to God (YHWH) mean "to be" or "that which was, which is, and which will be," another meaning of the "name" of the modern Messiah is "God delivers [through him]." There are many ways of spelling the name, depending on which language you use and which religion you identify with. But in any language it means he who serves and delivers a message for God, because God is the only Holy One and the true liberator and redeemer.

He was born in early March of 1941, the same year that Bob Dylan, Joan Baez, Paul Simon, Richie Havens and David Crosby were born. And now as an old man facing death, he has worn himself out, and he has become terribly afflicted and is very weak and weary.

Nevertheless, he is who and what he is, and according to prophecy, during his lifetime the Jews, the tribes of Jacob and the offspring of Israel have been given a national homeland. But since 1948 the U.S. has also given them a position of power in the world, and that 
has been very problematic because of misinterpretation of prophecies along with ethnic pride. Consequently, the government of the nation of Israel has committed many offenses and crimes against its neighbors, and it is besieged because of its iniquity, hegemony, expansionism, offenses and crimes against humanity.

That is part of the reason why the prophet who wrote Isaiah 49:1-7 foresaw that God's servant who "brings Jacob again" would be rejected by the Jews, and by Christians and other Gentiles of his generation as well.

Isaiah 49:1-7 expressed what the prophet foresaw the modern son of man saying, because Isaiah was not speaking of himself and was obviously not speaking of Jesus, since Jesus was certainly not hidden or concealed, he was not first stricken and afflicted, and he did not labor in vain or spend his strength for naught.

In fact, the book of Isaiah and most of the other messianic prophecies in Hebrew scriptures were not about Jesus but of the modern son of man, as you will see, and Jesus knew it and said so. For both Isaiah and Jesus spoke of the same person who would come now, which is why Jesus said the modern son of man would "first be rejected by his generation" (whereas by contrast Jesus was accepted by multitudes in his generation).

The modern son of man is rejected partly because he is not who or what anyone expected, because he fulfills prophecies that have been ignored or misinterpreted or misunderstood. Therefore, he is not a conquering warrior hero or king, but a lowly servant-messenger of God, first dismissed by his generation as a fool who has been stricken, afflicted and crippled. And he is more like a prodigal son than a prince among men, at least not in the sight of men.

Thus he fulfills the actual, real prophecies. For he is from your midst and of your brethren, and at 30 years old when he saw God he was on top of the world with unshakable faith, remarkable self-assurance, and in a state of love. But, he is only human, and now, at age 73, he is contrite of spirit, having realized his vain folly. 

In fact, he suffers the consequences of it, and he is your fellow companion in tribulation. He suffers many things, and he is well acquainted with grief and sorrow. He grieves not only for the earth and for all human beings who suffer. He suffers many things himself because he has paid a heavy price for his sins, willfulness and vanity, and for being judgmental and having judged the leaders of the world. And he fears all his work has been in vain and for nothing because he has been rejected for so long.

Thus he fulfills the prophecies of Jesus of Nazareth and especially the prophecies in the book of Isaiah, which is the most specific in telling of the plight of the modern son of man who would be stricken and afflicted and reduced to his present pitiful state, "crushed" by disease, depression, self-doubt and despair. 

Nevertheless, he is God's chosen servant. He is not the Light, but bears witness to the Light of the world that is brighter than the sun. He is not God, but serves God and Humanity --- not just one nation, not just one religion, not just one race or culture, but all.

His mission is not to exalt himself or seek high office in religion or government. His mission is to counsel you and issue righteous judgment, show you things to come, and empower and liberate you all, from behind the scenes, so that you can establish governments that are truly of the people, by the people, and for the people, and respect all religions, nationalities, races, and cultures as the human family that we are.

In fulfilling the world's prophecies, including the prophecies in the book of Isaiah and of Jesus of Nazareth, he has not only first been hidden and rejected, but also even "cut off from the living" before his work is finally accepted and acknowledged.

Only he understands how and why he is "hidden and cut off from the land of the living," per Isaiah 49:1-5, 49:2-5, and 53:8. But considering who and what he is, what his role and mission is, and what the world is like, it is no wonder why he would naturally feel alienated and apart even while trying to blend in and live like other men -- and not bring attention to or exalt himself by delivering his work anonymously. 

He is 73 years old now and has tried to deliver the prophesied message of judgment since 1984 when he saw the ominous signs of the terrible things to come. And now, after having learned just enough about world history, world religions and prophecies, and the reality and cause of the world's problems, he has completed delivering the promised judgment. And consequently he is as the prophet who wrote the book Isaiah foresaw he would be.

With correct understanding of the book of Isaiah we can understand the prophecies of Jesus of Nazareth. And it is not difficult to see that Isaiah foresaw the plight of the modern son of man, who not only fears that all his work has been in vain. He even suspects that it has been merely an exercise in vanity, and he fears that he is what his critics accuse him of being --- merely a deluded fool with a messianic complex. And yet deep in his heart and soul he knows he was called from the womb to do this work and deliver the message from the Spirit of truth -- and he did it to obey God in spite of himself and his self-doubts and dispair.

There is a very good reason why Isaiah, prophesying about the Messiah wrote in Isaiah 53:34, according to the original Hebrew text: “He was despised, and forsaken of men, a man of pains, and acquainted with disease, and as one from whom men hide their face. He was despised, and we esteemed him not. Surely our diseases he did bear, and our pains he carried; whereas we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.”

There is also a good reason why Isaiah wrote in 53:10: “Yet it pleased the Lord to crush him by disease; to see if his soul would offer itself in restitution ...” For all that is true and has been fulfilled, and the soul of the son of man and Messiah has indeed offered itself in restitution – both for his own restitution, and for humanity’s. 

Understanding Isaiah we can see why, like Jacob, the modern son of man has struggled with God; why he is "hidden;" why he does not seek personal power by speaking in person from behind a podium or pulpit or in the streets or on a soapbox on a street corner, but instead sends his work before him; why he has been stricken and afflicted; and why he suffers so many things.

A correct understanding of Isaiah enables us to understand why Jesus of Nazareth said that the next son of man would "first suffer many things and be rejected by his generation" (Luke 17:20-25), because Jesus wasn't talking about himself in that instance. After all, Jesus suffered only on the last day of his life, after he completed his mission. And, even though he was rejected by the chief priests, scribes and Romans, he was accepted by multitudes of Jews and Greeks in his generation. 

Therefore, Jesus was talking about the one who would come at the end of the age, who would first be rejected and suffer, who would "guide you into truth, do the will of the Holy One who sent him, tell you what he hears from God, tell you what is to come, and glorify the Christ [who is in heaven with God] and bear his testimony." (John 8:28, John 12:47, and John 16:7-15)

Misunderstanding that, many Christians believe there will be a "second coming" of Jesus. But, with a correct understanding of world prophecies, we can see that he who fulfills the prophecies is the modern son of man who bears testimony of all previous servants of God, prophets, avatars, buddhas, sages, and christs (anointed ones). For all of them and all the angels of the heavenly Host tell us that we should obey and worship God, which is not a man nor a son of man, but by any other name is the eternal, infinite, omnipresent Great Spirit-Parent of us all.

Now, God's principal messenger, having been rejected and facing death at age 73 because he has been stricken and afflicted so heavily, fears and feels that he will die a failure, and that all his work has been in vain and for naught (according to Isaiah 49:2-5) , and yet deep within his soul he knows his work is with the Lord Our God, the eternal Great Spirit-Parent, and for the ultimate benefit of all humanity. 

Part of his mission is to say there is no holy man, for only the eternal God is the Holy One and Savior. So the son of man does not play God. He serves God the Savior, merely as a messenger, to liberate and empower all human beings, and show how and why we are all equal joint heirs to our divine inheritance.

The modern son of man is more like a prodigal son, because he has been covetous and willful, and, having faced his weaknesses, failures and mistakes, he is contrite of spirit.

Part of the reason he is rejected is because many Jews and Christians expect a Messiah who will be a "holy warrior-king." But, as the articles A Messiah Is Not the Savior and Prophecies Re: He Who Fulfills Them reveal, the Messiah is a servant of our eternal, infinite, omnipresent Lord God and Savior, and his only "weapons" are words of truth, which he delivers before him like lightning seen all around the world according to the prophecies of Isaiah and Jesus.

In many ways he is like many of you, because some of the many afflictions he suffers are not unique, and are like the afflictions of many people. He is a man of sorrows and well acquainted with grief, as Isaiah wrote. For according to Isaiah he suffers not only for his people's iniquity, but for his own willfulness and covetousness. And, because his mission is to deliver the promised judgment according to prophecies, as he has judged, so he has been judged, and as he has sown, so has he reaped. So he suffers greatly, understanding why.

He is from your midst and of your brethren, and there was nothing miraculous about his birth. He has performed no magic or miracles, and no profound miracles happened to him until he was 30 years old in 1971 when through a series of quickening revelations he realized the divine reality and was carried away in spirit to that high and holy place where the real God inhabits eternity, where he witnessed God directly. 

Now, facing death, he has come a long way from being in that eternal moment of pure ecstasy and joy, and he has been reduced to a state of suffering, pain, sorrow and grief. As prophesied, the modern son of man's ego has has been withered by suffering and he is humbled and contrite; he fears all his work has been in vain and he feels he is very unworthy and wonders why God would have chosen him to fulfill what seems to be such an impossible dream -- for the meek to inherit the earth and make peace. 

And yet, in his heart and soul he knows he serves God and fulfills prophecy, and he bears the weight of the responsibility willingly for humanity's and God's sake, even though it may mean he will die trying.

He's been trying to deliver the message for 29 years, though he wasn't able to publish its original version until January 2002. Since then increasing numbers of people have gotten a good part of the message, which has continually evolved and developed as he learned more. Most people are not aware of the source, though, because he has written anonymously. But many people have become aware of his message, not only directly, but indirectly as parts of his message has been widely plagiarized by others, even though he and the full message are still rejected.

Even though he feels like a miserable excuse of a man, he knows that our omnipresent eternal God is the God of the world, of all peoples, all religions and all nations, and God is God by any other name. But God is not what many Jews, Christians, Muslims, Hindus and other monotheists have been led to believe (see the article on The Nature of God).

The modern son of man understands that he may not necessarily be a "branch of David," though he may be. But he also understands that the prophecy about the Mashiach/Messiah being a "branch" and from the "root" of early Jewish leaders does not necessarily refer to his genealogy, but to his spiritual calling and mission to overcome the forces of greed and self-interest and liberate his people -- all human beings.

In other words, the modern Messiah/son of man was called, chosen and sent by God, not by Man, nor by biological legacy or heredity. 

His mission is to liberate and empower all humanity. That is why Isaiah wrote that "they shall fear the name of the Lord from the West." (Isaiah 59:19) Why? Because he rebukes all religious and political leaders in the world who have done and are doing wrong, including Jews in Israel, who "know not the ways of peace" and have instead caused much suffering, violence, death and destruction. 

The modern son of man is in the West, and he serves in the name of the Lord of Lords, our God. He serves also in the name of the Ancient One that Jesus of Nazareth represented, the Lord and Ancient One who was "before Abraham," who is in heaven with God, who has a "new name" according to Isaiah 62:2 and Revelation 2:17 and 3:12.

However, it is important to understand that the modern son of man is only human — because even though his mission is rooted in and stems from the spiritual legacy and line of Jesse, David, Solomon and Jesus, he is not what you would call a "holy man." In fact, as he has judged, so he is judged. But, God knows that his nature is not violent or deceitful, and that his heart is in the right place.

Even so, he has reaped what he has sown. Moreover, if or when his identity is revealed (and even if it is not), he will be "crucified" -- but perhaps not in the way Jesus was. He may already be dead by that time. But whether dead or still alive when the world becomes aware of the message, his enemies will deny the truth in the message, and they will concentrate on character assassination trying to destroy his credibility.

That would be easy, because he is a flawed human being, which is partly why he suffers. But the son of man knows that since he fulfills the prophecies of Isaiah and Jesus, part of the reason he suffers so much is because the iniquity of the leaders of Israel and other misled countries has been laid upon him. Moreover, he bears the weight of the world because the government is upon his shoulders -- figuratively speaking -- which is why he suggests why and how we must finally establish government of, by the for the people, and share the throne as equal joint heirs.


What Is a Son of Man? 

As is discussed in the article on A Messiah, many men were called "son of man" in the Hebrew Bible (Torah and Tanakh), and Jesus of Nazareth used the term "son of man" both for himself and for a son of man to come at the end of the age Jesus ushered in. 

However, the scope of the mission of the modern son of man is global, and he fulfills not only the prophecies of Judaism and Christianity, but of most other religions as well. He only uses Judeo-Christian terminology because he was raised in that tradition, and because the message must address Judaism, being the foundation for both Christianity and Islam, which are the two largest religions in the world.

When you read his story and consider the prophecies in the new light, you can see why Isaiah wrote that the modern son of man would "not cause his voice to be heard in the street" or as an orator in public; be "hidden in the shadow of God’s hand"; deliver "his work before him" only to face so much rejection that he would fear his work was all "in vain and for naught."  (See the article on Isaiah Chapter 53.)

That is why it is appropriate to tell his story, but it is told not to exalt him. As the great sage Lao Tzu wrote in the Book of Tao: "When the best leader's work is accomplished, the people will say, 'We did it ourselves!'" That is, he serves from behind the scenes to liberate and empower the people.

His story is told here only to provide evidence that he is the authorized, chosen one sent by the Lord of hosts who is the Lord God in heaven, to deliver the prophesied judgment from the Spirit of truth -- as a witness and messenger for our God, The Holy One who sent him.

He is a fellow companion in tribulation and one of you. But he has been rather like a sheep in a world where wolves in sheep's clothing preach hate and despise the real truth. That's why he is as harmless as a dove but tries to be as wise as a serpent, as Jesus advised, and why he delivers the message from behind the scenes anonymously. And no wonder. It was predictable that his worst critics would accuse him and denounce him as a deceptive heretic, and theocratic "religious" madmen would want to kill him.

He has been aware for a very long time what he was getting his self into. He understands why those he refutes and rebukes feel defensive and angry, because he has been instructed to target this message appropriately and make it firm and strong, not lukewarm.

Still, he makes no claim of divinity, and is not "holier than thou." He is not infallible. He confesses he has erred in his life. And he must face and confess his own weaknesses, his own fallibility, and his own sins, because he is not to be put on a pedestal, or idolized as an idol for worship, as Jesus has been. For we are to worship God only, and as Moses wrote, God is not a man, nor a son of man, and as even Jesus said, God ["our Father"] "is greater than I."

This is not without precedent. For a son of man is actually just a man of unyielding conscience. He is his own worst critic, and he can speak as the conscience of his people only because he allows his own conscience to show him how weak and fallible and prone to sin he is himself. That is why he emphasizes that he serves the will of the One who sent him, God, who alone is worthy of our worship.


His Early Life

He was born in the Far West of the United States in early March of 1941, when very powerful warlords who ruled Germany and Japan were threatening to conquer and rule the whole world by force of arms.

His immediate family was not religious, but they observed Christian holidays. He was aware that his maternal grandparents were devout Christians, because his grandfather was a soloist in a Methodist Church choir and he attended services often to hear his grandfather sing. However, as a youth he was not aware of his paternal grandparent’s religion. (He had assumed it was Christian since they observed Christian holidays. But when he was 35 years old after his father died, he discovered that his late grandfather was a Freemason and a Unitarian Universalist.)

Despite the wars in the 1940s, '50s and '60s, as a child, youth and young man, he lived what many would call a charmed life. Even though he was born into a family of very modest means, he had what he needed and nearly everything he really wanted.

However, as a very young child he learned a very power lesson about the wrongness of taking something that belonged to someone else. While his family was visiting relatives, he had gone into a bedroom and saw a role of dimes on a dresser. He had never seen one before, and he was amazed by it. He stuck it in his pocket, being too young to fully realize how wrong that was. When he got home he put all the dimes in his piggy bank, which had been almost empty. He showed his older brother, who of course told their parents, who of course made him return the money personally to his aunt and uncle. It devastated and mortified him and made him realize how disappointed his whole family was, and that memory was etched in his mind.

As a child and youth he suffered from shyness. One of his most embarrassing moments was in the fourth grade when his arithmetic teacher made him try to solve a problem on the chalk board in front of the class. But he was frozen and his face flushed hot with unbearable shame. And it wasn’t until he was in the seventh grade that he became confident enough to appear on stage in a musical play, and sing a short solo during a song.

Though usually shy and amiable, he was prone to anger when very provoked, because he abhorred unfairness, unkindness and injustice, whether to him or another. (And this tendency stayed with him his whole life, except for a period between the age of 30 and 37, as you will see).

Gradually his hair darkened to brown, and as he became a young man in high school and was very successful in athletics and music, he began to overcame much of his shyness and he was well liked and popular. As an academic student, however, he tended to be, as they say, slothful and lazy. (And his first experience at college was unproductive, hampered by his desire to socialize and find romance.)

His favorite thing as a child, youth and young man was being at a mountain lake in the high Sierra, boating, socializing, backpacking in the wilderness, trout fishing, and water skiing, and in the winter he loved to go snow skiing. He was an all American boy.

He was extremely fortunate that he was able to go to that lake, because his family had a little cabin there, which his paternal grandfather had bought in the 1930s. (His grandfather was a city policeman and an avid fisherman and hunter who also loved the lake.) So he was able to spend a good part of his summers there.

He had many friends there, and (unlike his parents) the parents of most of his friends at the lake were wealthy. Most of their parents were professional people, like doctors, lawyers, professors, psychologists, etc., and some were wealthy industrialists. He loved them all. He knew and saw many extremely wealthy people at their best, when they were on vacation, enjoying life, and he saw them as good people – as most of them were.

From the age of 14 he worked at the lodge at the entrance to the lake, first as a taxi boat driver, then as a carpenter's helper, then as a handyman. But at age 21, in 1962, he was about to be drafted into the Army, so he joined the Marine Corps. And in 1964 at age 23, while in the service, he "married up" to a girl he had met and fallen in love with at the lake, a daughter of a wealthy corporate attorney, who also had a cabin at the lake.

In 1966, during his fourth and last year in the Corps, he earned the rank of Sergeant and was the assistant director of the band at his last duty station after his tour over seas. The band played in local parades and concerts, and he led the band to the flag pole every morning and directed them playing the Star Spangled Banner -- and he was proud of it.

At that time he also learned how to play the guitar to accompany himself singing, so during his last year in the service he began singing in inns, clubs and restaurants, and he continued to do that sporadically after they returned to his home town.

By 1969 at age 28 he had everything most men dream of -- a beautiful wife, and, thanks to his wife’s money from her father, they had a nice home, a summer vacation cabin of their own on the lake, a nice boat for water skiing, and nearly everything else he wanted. And by that time he was a senior in college with a 3.4 grade point average, having finally applied himself in his studies, with plans to be a music teacher.

He had majored in music, but changed in his senior year and graduated as an art major and music minor. He wanted to take more art classes because he loved the free spirited artists and hippies. And, incidentally, in one of his art classes he painted a self-portrait that must have come from his soul, because it was of him as an old man nearly bald on the top of his head, with white hair and full white beard. It meant nothing to him then, but now he understands it because it was a very accurate picture of him as he is now.

Then, in 1969 romantic love let him down, because he had been deeply hurt by his wife and he divorced her. He has told the story about it not only for the sake of honesty, but because when his message is taken seriously, and if his identity is revealed, the opinions of those who knew him as a young man will be sought and the opinions of some may be based on the perception some people had of him in 1969 and the early 1970s.

Regarding the divorce, none of his friends or family knew the truth at the time. He did not tell anyone it was about infidelity and betrayal. Even though at the time he felt deeply betrayed and very hurt, he kept it to himself, and he was extremely depressed. When she repeated her betrayal he decided to get a divorce, and when he did that his wife then got angry and insisted that he just leave with nothing but his clothes and personal belongings.

He complied, but then he thought he deserved something in compensation the work he had done to increase the value of their personal property and real estate. He had contributed to raising the value of their property, and he thought it was only fair that he should be compensated at least for that.

That's why he hired a divorce attorney, but he did not ask for half of the value of their community property as the state law allowed. Instead, he instructed his attorney to ask for only what was fair, for compensation for his work. That's why he was then shocked to find that his wife's attorney (who happened to be his wife's father) claimed that he was "trying to profit from the marriage." That was not true, but, as he found out, the truth often doesn't matter in "legal" procedures. What matters is construed perceptions. Consequently he received a small token amount in the settlement. 


Unfortunately, because he did not tell his friends or family why he divorced his wife at the time, that turned out to be detrimental for him because some of his friends and family assumed that he was at fault. They had no reason to make that assumption, but it was then considered validated because not long after he left his wife he then dated several women. That caused more of his friends and relatives to assume that he had been unfaithful to his wife, and many of his friends and family were even led to believe that he had tried to profit from his marriage. Neither that assumption nor that allegation were true -- but he did nothing about it, and said nothing about it.

He bore no malice for his ex-wife or for anyone else. However, because he had been so deeply hurt by his wife, it took him about seven years before he felt like approaching her, and he succeeded in becoming friends with her again.

He did that because he had really loved his life when he was with her, and even though after the betrayal and during and after the divorce he had hardened his heart toward her, he came to forgive her and later realized that he never really stopped loving her. Even as he grew old he occasionally remembered what good times they had and how attracted to her he was.

But, after the divorce he moved on. He enjoyed being single, and he was very attracted to the Hippie life style — not the superficial, pretentious one, but the genuinely honest, loving, giving, natural, free spirit life style. He was very aware of what was happening in San Francisco and with the Woodstock generation, and he had tried and liked Marijuana. He did a lot of research and learned the truth about it. He learned that the laws against it were based on partly on half-truths and mostly on outright falsehoods, and he could see how and why it was so popular among creative people – like poets, artists and musicians who used it to good advantage and benefit. (In later years and even in recent years he did much more research, learned even more about it, and wrote and update the article on The Plant of Renown).

Anyway, in 1969 after the divorce he started living a new life. He had a good time, and he was able to buy an amplifier and microphones so he could begin singing more in clubs and appear a little more professional. He also enjoyed dating a lot of women. But, it wasn't long before he had a steady girlfriend who he lived with, and even started singing with in his gigs.

Seeing God In 1971

In 1971, when he was thirty years old, his life changed even more profoundly, in a way he did not expect.

He was at a party with his girl friend and a lot of her friends from college, and the incident began because he fortuitously realized the nature of divine, universal love -- as differentiated from romantic love.

He was sitting on the floor in a circle of friends who were passing around joints (Marijuana cigarettes). He only had about two small hits (or puffs) when he noticed his girl friend standing in the doorway with another man. They were clearly affectionate toward each other, but after having a twinge of jealously he suddenly realized and felt something he had never felt before, that it was good, not bad. He realized that her loving others was good.

He was so excited about that realization that he got up, went over to them and hugged them both. His girlfriend was a bit startled, so he took them both into the next room and sat down on the floor with them, anxious to tell them what he had realized. But as he was talking, that revelation triggered much greater revelations, each one more profound. He remembers telling them at one point that we are all connected, as if by a silver thread of light, and the revelations just kept coming, and quickening.

The revelations began to come so fast that they reached a peak, and at that point something actually "clicked" in the top of his head and he became completely awe struck. And as that was happening a tremendous feeling began to generate at the base of his spine and it began to move upward, slowly and gradually. It was warm and amazingly ecstatic, and he began to feel as if his body was expanding as the feeling expanded and grew, until it reached the top of his head and he or his consciousness went up and out of his body, into another realm.

He later learned that the revelations had opened the door to the opening of the "seven seals" of revelation and the "seven chakras," which culminated in his being "carried away in spirit to that high and holy place where God inhabits eternity," into the Divine Light of God, where God’s "Book of Life" was opened to him.

He had been drawn up in spirit, out of his body, right into what many have called the "Light at the end of the tunnel." But he found the "tunnel" to be more like a funnel, through which he started from the bottom, small end, and then was drawn up, slowly spiraling and expanding in spiritual consciousness and being, until he went right up into the Infinite Eternal Divine Light-Energy-Source-Essence of our existence. And thus he became one with God and the Light of God, the Supreme Consciousness, which is God by any other name.

He reports that he was in a realm in which, at its innermost center, was exceedingly bright, shimmering Light, far brighter than the sun or any light on earth. And he felt and "heard" what he later understood was the primordial vibration, or the unspeakable and silent "Word" of God, which was in the beginning, which was with God and is God, and which is made flesh in all of us. It is what gives life and consciousness to every spark and fiber of our being. And he felt and absorbed the truly awesome, totally overwhelming ecstasy, and the pure love and pure knowingness of God.

He did not hear any voice, or see any figure or entity, or any image or form, and much later he concluded why -- because God did not want him to associate the experience with any particular religion or religious figure. He had be taken up beyond the realm of time, space and form, right into the Light of the Original Universal Consciousness of Divine Truth, Pure Peace, Pure Love, and Pure Understanding, which is beyond human comprehension.

When he came back into his body he was on such an incredible natural "high" that he couldn't sleep for several days. And he realized that he did not and could not possibly retain all that he had been given. It was beyond intellect, beyond being fathomed by the mere human consciousness. So he then started out on a path of learning and examining the world’s religions and spiritual teachings, to try to fathom and understand what he had witnessed and experienced, and absorb the gift he had been given.

His first spiritual teacher made known to him was Stephen Gaskin, an American type of guru who had gained a growing group of friends and followers in San Francisco, and wrote his first book called Monday Night Class in 1970 and, a few years later founded The Farm spiritual community.

Another teacher was Baba Ram Dass, who wrote Be Here Now, published by the Lama Foundation, which also published a book titled Seed. Both those books were fascinating to the son of man and made a big impression, because they recognized the universality of the teachings of the greatest religious figures of history.

Another teacher was Paramansa Yogananda, who wrote Autobiography of a Yogi and founded the Self-Realization Fellowship in America in the 1920s. He too understood the teachings of Jesus, in a Hindu context -- and the son of man learned Yogananda's method of Hatha Yoga and Raja Yoga.

Another teacher was Paul Foster Case, who was an American Freemason (as were George Washington, Benjamin Franklin and the messenger's paternal grandfather). Case was an intellectual who did what he thought best to advance the Western Mystery School tradition based on the Judaic Kabbalah and newer Christian Qabalah. He founded The Builders of the Adytum (B.O.T.A.), which offers correspondence lessons on the Qabalah and Sacred Tarot, which is actually meant for individual spiritual purposed, mainly for self-realization. (And by the way, Adytum means "Inner Shrine," and the B.O.T.A. teaching order recognizes universal truths in the ageless wisdom teachings derived from the ancient mystical root of Judaism and Christianity.)

He studied many other teachings as well, and read many books by or about many diverse people, such as John Lilly M.D., Meher Baba, and Black Elk, the great Native America sage. But there were many others, and in more recent years he read books by Karen Armstrong, Marcus Borg and John Dominic Crossan, members of the prestigious Jesus Seminar, which is a large group of progressive Christian scholars.

All these teachers gave him a more full idea of what alternative views there were and are, besides the traditional American Christian view that he was raised with and was portrayed in Hollywood movies in the 1950s (and has been portrayed yet again in more recent movies in an attempt to revive the canonized Pauline version of Christianity).

All of his studies ever since then have ultimately confirmed that the same eternal, essential, universal truths are common to all religions, and it confirmed how and why all the greatest spiritual teachers throughout history were in tune with the same Divine Light, the same Great Spirit and Supreme Consciousness of eternal, universal truth and divine love that he had directly witnessed, felt, absorbed, and savored — which many people also call the Lord God, Jehovah, Yahweh, Brahman, Tao, Ahura Mazda, Allah, Wakan Tanka, among many other names for the Holy One.

During the time of his spiritual awakening it was a time when the seeds of the coming New Reformation were planted, when a good many young Americans were learning about the universal truths that are at the core of every religion. (And in more recent times he has learned that it was much like had happened in America in the late 1700s and very early 1800s due to "The Enlightenment" period in Europe and America, which resulted in the Founding Father’s insistence on freedom of religion and freedom from the Theocracy that had been institutionalized by the Roman and Anglican churches).

During the first few years following his spiritual awakening, he wanted to learn and study the spiritual and religious works of man because he realized that what he had absorbed emotionally and spiritually was far too overwhelming to grasp intellectually. That is why he set out on a path of intellectual and academic learning.

But, the more he grew in his knowledge of religions, religious traditions and esoteric spiritual teachings, the more he came to think that all he could learn from people was what they thought of God, and he already knew what God is. And, unfortunately, after a few years, he thought he didn't need more education and guidance. He thought he was enlightened reborn of the spirit, but much later with hindsight and study of scriptures and Qabalah, he realized that he had become foolish and unwittingly covetous and willful.

You see, having been called by God and having witnessed the Divine Light and reality of God does not make a person enlightened. One becomes enlightened only after a process of spiritual unfoldment which can eventually lead to actual spiritual rebirth. So he understands that even at 73 years old, he is still on the path of return, still learning, understanding that if you think yourself enlightened or wise, you’re not.


Being The Naive Fool

Between 1971 and 1974, he sang in a number of clubs in his home town, and he enjoyed the rewards of his talent, especially from women. He performed sporadically for small audiences as he was finishing college, and after he graduated and earned a teaching credential he started working professionally in 1972 as an educator.

In early 1973 his girlfriend of two years broke up with him because once he had not been exclusive with his affections, and after they parted he grew his hair long and grew a beard again (because he had shaved it off for her), and he reveled again in the free love atmosphere.

But, even though he had so much going for him, materially and physically, it was not enough. He wanted to be able to return to God again, but he still didn’t know how. When he witnessed God in 1971 it had been fortuitous and as if by accident, and he found that no amount of meditation or prayer or study or effort enabled him to repeat the experience. But he kept trying.

However, at that time he did not have the slightest idea that he had been called by God for a mission. He had not developed a "messianic complex" yet. He was merely interested in returning to God, to experience that overwhelming ecstasy again. And, as a psychologist friend of his had told him in 1973, he had become too "enamored by enlightenment."

He was in his own world, and he had not come back "down to earth" yet. So he left his home town and all his family and friends, and set forth on a spiritual pilgrimage. But he was as a fool -- a naive, innocent fool.

(Continued at The Story of the Modern Son of Man: Part 2, which tells how he was stricken and afflicted, according to prophecies, and what he learned following that.)