The Modern Son of Man
(The Principal Messenger for the Spirit of Truth)
(Addition made to the personal "Last Chapter" at the end of Part 3 on 12-9-2015.)
First it should be explained that he is rejected by Jews and Christians because nobody understands the prophecies of Isaiah, who was the must succinct and most understanding about the predicament the modern son of man would face.
Isiah 49:1-7 -- “Listen to me, all peoples, from far: the Lord has called me ... And the Lord God has made my mouth and pen like a sharp sword, in the shadow of God’s hand have I been hidden; and the Lord has made me as a polished arrow, in God’s quiver I have been concealed. And God said to me: 'You are My servant, Israel, in whom I will be glorified.' But I said: 'I have labored in vain, I have spent my strength for naught and vanity; yet surely my righteousness is with the Lord, and my satisfaction with my God.' And now says my God that formed me from the womb to be a loyal servant, to bring Jacob back to God, and that Israel be gathered unto God — for I am honorable in the sight of my God, which is become my strength. Indeed, God said: 'It is not enough that you should be My servant to raise up the tribes of Jacob, and to restore the offspring of Israel. I will also give you for a light of all the nations, that My salvation may be unto the ends of the earth.' Thus said the Lord, the Redeemer of Israel, his Holy One, to him who is despised of men, to him who is abhorred of nations, to a servant of rulers: ‘They shall see, and they shall lower themselves and acknowledge God; because of the Lord that is faithful, even the Holy One of Israel, who has chosen you.’”
Those words, of course, are attributed to the modern son of man, the servant of God who can now speaks those words near the end of his life and at the end of the age (aeon) Jesus ushered in, as Jesus also prophesied since he knew the prophecies of Isaiah well. And as you can see and hear in the video (click here) released March 5, 2015, he has finally actually spoken the key words.
He fulfill prophecies, as you can read specifically in the article about Prophecies Re: He Who Fulfills Them. And the official "name" of the modern son of man, which God "knew" when the son of man was still in the womb, means "to deliver, to liberate." For the meaning of the "new name" of the modern Messiah, Jehoshuah in the Abrahamic tradition, is "God delivers [and liberates]" through him. There are many ways of spelling the name, depending on which language you use and which religion you identify with. But in any language it means he who was anointed by God and serves God and delivers a message for God, because God is the only Holy One and the true liberator and redeemer.
The modern son of man is rejected partly because he is not who or what anyone expected, because he fulfills prophecies like that example from Isaiah which have been ignored or misinterpreted or misunderstood. Therefore, he is not a conquering warrior hero or king, but a lowly servant-messenger of God, first dismissed by his generation as a fool who has been stricken, afflicted and crippled. And he is more like a prodigal son than a prince among men, as articles about prophecies reveal.
He is from your midst and of your brethren, and at 30 years old when he saw God he was on top of the world with unshakable faith, remarkable self-assurance, and in a state of love. But, he is only human, to a fault, and now, at age 74, he is contrite of spirit, having realized his vain folly.
As God's chosen servant, he is not the Light, but bears witness to the Light of the world that is brighter than the sun. He is not God, but serves God and Humanity --- not just one nation, not just one religion, not just one race or culture, but all.
His mission is not to exalt himself or seek high office in religion or government. His mission is to counsel you and issue righteous judgment, show you things to come, and empower and liberate you all, from behind the scenes, so that you can establish governments that are truly of the people, by the people, and for the people, and respect all religions, nationalities, races, and cultures as the human family that we are.
But now, having been rejected and facing death at age 74 because he has been stricken and afflicted so heavily by many diseases (see the original Hebrew version of Isaiah 53), he fears and feels that he will die a failure, and that all his work has been in vain and for naught (according to Isaiah 49:2-5). And yet deep within his soul he knows his work is with the Lord Our God, the eternal Great Spirit-Parent, and for the ultimate benefit of all humanity.
The genuine son of man and Messiah is actually just a man of unyielding conscience who has directly witnessed God. He is his own worst critic, and he can speak as the conscience of his people only because he allows his own conscience to show him how weak and fallible and prone to sin he is himself. That is why he emphasizes that he serves the will of the One who sent him, God, who alone is worthy of our worship.
His Early Life
He was born in the Far West of the United States in early March of 1941, when very powerful warlords who ruled Germany and Japan were threatening to conquer and rule the whole world by force of arms.
His immediate family was not religious, but they observed Christian holidays. He was aware that his maternal grandparents were devout Christians, because his grandfather was a soloist in a Methodist Church choir and he attended services often to hear his grandfather sing. However, as a youth he was not aware of his paternal grandparent’s religion. (He had assumed it was Christian since they observed Christian holidays. But when he was 35 years old after his father died, he discovered that his late grandfather, whose occupation was as a city policeman, was a Freemason and a Unitarian Universalist.)
Despite the wars in the 1940s, '50s and '60s, as a child, youth and young man, he lived what many would call a charmed life. Even though he was born into a family of very modest means, he had what he needed and nearly everything he really wanted.
However, as a very young child he learned a very power lesson about the wrongness of taking something that belonged to someone else. While his family was visiting relatives, he had gone into a bedroom and saw a role of dimes on a dresser. He had never seen one before, and he was amazed by it. He stuck it in his pocket, being too young to fully realize how wrong that was. When he got home he put all the dimes in his piggy bank, which had been almost empty. He showed his older brother, who of course told their parents, who of course made him return the money personally to his aunt and uncle. It devastated and mortified him and made him realize how disappointed his whole family was, and that memory was etched in his mind.
As a child and youth he suffered from shyness. One of his most embarrassing moments was in the fourth grade when his arithmetic teacher made him try to solve a problem on the chalk board in front of the class. But he was frozen and his face flushed hot with unbearable shame. To him it was unbearable to have attention centered on him. But then, when he was in the seventh grade that he didn't mind appearing on stage in a musical play about Huck Finn, and sing a short solo during a song.
Though usually shy and amiable, he was prone to anger when very provoked, because he abhorred unfairness, unkindness and injustice, whether to him or another. (And this tendency stayed with him his whole life, except for a period between the age of 30 and 37, as you will see).
Gradually his hair darkened to brown, and as he became a young man in high school and was very successful in athletics and music, he began to overcame much of his shyness and he was well liked and popular. As an academic student, however, he tended to be slothful and lazy. (And his first experience at college was unproductive, hampered by his desire to socialize and find romance.)
His favorite thing as a child, youth and young man was being at a lake in the high mountains, boating, socializing, backpacking in the wilderness, trout fishing, and water skiing, and in the winter he loved to go snow skiing. He was an all American boy.
He was extremely fortunate that he was able to go to that lake, because his family had a little cabin there, which his paternal grandfather had bought in the 1930s. (As mentioned, his grandfather was a city policeman and an avid fisherman and hunter who also loved the lake.) So he was able to spend a good part of his summers there.
He had many friends there, and the parents of most of his friends at the lake were well-to-do and even wealthy. Most of their parents were professional people, like doctors, lawyers, professors, psychologists, etc., and some were wealthy industrialists. He loved them all. He knew and saw many extremely wealthy people at their best, when they were on vacation, enjoying life, and he saw them as good people – as most of them were.
From the age of 14 he worked at the lodge at the entrance to the lake, first as a taxi boat driver, then as a carpenter's helper, then as a handyman.
But at age 21, in 1962, he was about to be drafted into the Army, so he joined the Marine Corps. And in 1964 at age 23, while in the service, he "married up" to a young woman he had met and fallen in love with at the lake, a daughter of a wealthy corporate attorney, who also had a cabin at the lake. (Below is a photo she took of him there.)
In 1966, during his fourth and last year in the Corps, he earned the rank of Sergeant and was the assistant director of the band at his last duty station after his tour over seas. The band played in parades and concerts, and he led the band to the flag pole every morning and directed them playing the Star Spangled Banner -- and he was proud of it.
At that time he also learned how to play the guitar to accompany himself singing, so during his last year in the service he began singing in inns, clubs and restaurants, and he continued to do that sporadically after they returned to his home town.
By 1969 at age 28 he had everything most men dream of -- a beautiful wife, and, thanks to his wife’s money from her father, they had a nice home, a summer vacation cabin of their own on the lake, a nice boat for water skiing, and nearly everything else he wanted. And by that time he was a senior in college with a 3.4 grade point average, having finally applied himself in his studies, with plans to be a music teacher.
He majored in music but changed in his senior year and graduated as an art major and music minor. He wasn't very interested in advanced music theory or orchestration, and he wanted to take more art classes because he loved the free spirited artists and hippies. And, incidentally, in one of his art classes he painted a self-portrait that must have come from his soul, because it was of him as an old man nearly bald on the top of his head, with white hair and full white beard. It meant nothing to him then, but now he understands it because it was a very accurate picture of him as he is now.
Then, in 1969 romantic love let him down, because he had been deeply hurt by his wife and he divorced her. He has written about it (along with other negative things) not only for the sake of honesty, but because when his message is taken seriously, and if his identity is revealed, the opinions of those who knew him as a young man will be sought out and interviewed, and the opinions of some may be based on the perceptions and opinions some people had of him in 1969 and the in the 1970s.
Regarding the divorce, none of his friends or family knew the truth at the time. He did not tell anyone the real reasons why he divorced his wife. He tried to not reveal how deeply hurt he felt, and he was depressed, especially when he was accused of "trying to profit from the marriage," because that was not true. He did not ask for what the state law allowed (which was half the value of the community property). He told his lawyer to ask only for compensation for his work in improving the value of their home property. But, as he found out, the truth often doesn't matter in such cases, and certainly not in gossip circles. What matters is perceptions and opinions.
Unfortunately, he paid a heavy price for being silent about why he divorced his wife, because some of his friends and family either assumed or were led to believe that he was at fault. That belief was then considered validated by some, because within a year after he left his wife he dated several women. That apparently caused more of his friends and relatives to assume that he had been unfaithful to his wife. And, to make things worse, more of his friends and family were led to believe that he had tried to profit from his marriage. But even though neither of those assumptions were true, he did nothing about it, and said nothing about it.
Photo in 1969 after divorcing his first wife, after having a couple of drinks while visiting his mother.
Even so, he bore no malice for his ex-wife, or for anyone else, and he gravitated toward his old and true friends who loved him, and his new friends, which he began to make easily. And in time he even made friends with his wife, though it took him about seven years before he felt like approaching her.
He did that because he had really loved his life when he was with her, and even though during and for a while after the divorce he had hardened his heart toward her, he realized that he never really stopped loving her. (And even as he grew old he occasionally remembered what good times they had and how attracted to her he was.)
Anyway, some time after the divorce he moved on. He grew to enjoy being single, and he grew his hair long because he was very attracted to the Hippie life style — not the superficial, pretentious one, but the genuinely honest, loving, giving, natural, free spirit life style. He was very aware of what was happening in San Francisco and with the Woodstock generation, and he had tried and liked Marijuana. He did a lot of research and learned the truth about it. He learned that the laws against it were based on partly on half-truths and mostly on outright falsehoods, and he could see how and why it was so popular among creative people – like poets, artists and musicians who used it to good advantage and benefit. (In later years and even in recent years he did much more research, learned even more about it, and wrote and later updated the article on The Plant of Renown).
In 1969 a while after he started living a new life he started having a good time, and he was able to buy a used amplifier and microphones so he could begin singing more in clubs and appear a little more professional. He also enjoyed dating a lot of women. But, it wasn't long before he had a steady girlfriend who he lived with, and even started singing with in his gigs.
Seeing God In 1971
In 1971, when he was thirty years old, his life changed even more profoundly, in a way he did not expect.
He was at a party with his girl friend and a lot of her friends from college, and the incident began because he fortuitously realized the nature of divine, universal love -- as differentiated from romantic love.
He was sitting on the floor in a big circle of friends who were passing around joints (Marijuana cigarettes). He only had about two small hits (or puffs) when he noticed his girl friend standing in the doorway with another man. They were clearly affectionate toward each other, but after having a twinge of jealously he suddenly realized and felt something he had never felt before, that it was good, not bad. He realized that her loving others was good.
He was so excited about that realization that he got up, went over to them and hugged them both. His girlfriend was a bit startled, so he took them both into the next room and sat down on the floor with them, anxious to tell them what he had realized. But as he was talking, that revelation triggered much greater revelations, each one more profound. He remembers telling them at one point that we are all connected, as if by a silver thread of light, and the revelations just kept coming, and quickening.
The revelations began to come so fast that they reached a peak, and at that point something actually "clicked" in the top of his head and he became completely awe struck. The sound of it was sort of like the sound you hear if you are underwater in a swimming poor and someone were to drop a stone into the water and it hit the bottom. And that click was like a switch being turn on, and tremendous feeling began to generate at the base of his spine. It began to move upward, spiraling slowly and gradually. It was warm and amazingly ecstatic, and he began to feel as if his body was expanding as the feeling expanded and grew, until it reached the top of his head and he or his consciousness went up and out of his body, into another realm.
He later learned that the revelations had opened the door to the opening of the "seven seals" of revelation and the "seven chakras," which culminated in his being "carried away in spirit to that high and holy place where God inhabits eternity," into the Divine Light of God, where God’s "Book of Life" was opened to him.
He had been drawn up in spirit, out of his body, right into what many have called the "Light at the end of the tunnel." But he found the "tunnel" to be more like a funnel, through which he started from the bottom, small end, and then was drawn up, slowly spiraling and expanding in spiritual consciousness and being, until he went right up into the Infinite Eternal Divine Light-Energy-Source-Essence of our existence. And thus he became one with God and the Light of God, the Supreme Consciousness, which is God by any other name.
He reports that he was in a realm of exceedingly bright, shimmering super-white Light, far brighter than the sun or any light on earth. And he felt and "heard" what he later understood was the primordial vibration, or the unspeakable and silent "Word" of God, which was in the beginning, which was with God and is God, and which is made flesh in all of us. It is what gives life and consciousness to every spark and fiber of our being. And he felt and absorbed the truly awesome, totally overwhelming ecstasy, and the pure love and pure knowing-ness of God.
He did not hear any voice, or see any figure or entity, or any image or form, and much later he concluded why. He believes God did not want him to associate the experience with any particular religion or religious figure. He had be taken up beyond the realm of time, space and form, right into the Light of the Original Universal Consciousness of Divine Truth, Pure Peace, Pure Love, and Pure Understanding, which is beyond human comprehension. And he was to associate it not with any form or thing, but only with pure love, pure Light, and pure truth.
When he came back into his body he was on such an incredible natural "high" that he couldn't sleep for several days. And he realized that he did not and could not possibly retain all that he had been given. It was beyond intellect, beyond being fathomed by the mere human consciousness. So he then started out on a path of learning and examining the world’s religions and spiritual teachings, to try to fathom and understand what he had witnessed and experienced, and absorb the gift he had been given.
His first spiritual teacher that came to his attention was Stephen Gaskin, an American and a type of guru who had gained a growing group of friends and followers in San Francisco and wrote his first book called Monday Night Class in 1970 and, then a few years later founded The Farm spiritual community.
Another teacher was Baba Ram Dass, who wrote Be Here Now, published by the Lama Foundation, which also published a book titled Seed. Both those books were fascinating to the son of man and made a big impression, because they spoke of universal truths and recognized the universality of the teachings of the greatest religious figures of history.
Another teacher was Paramansa Yogananda, who wrote Autobiography of a Yogi and founded the Self-Realization Fellowship in America in the 1920s. He too understood the teachings of Jesus, in a Hindu context -- and the son of man learned Yogananda's method of Hatha Yoga and Raja Yoga.
Another teacher was Paul Foster Case, who was an American Freemason (as were George Washington and Benjamin Franklin, and as many of great Americans have been). Case was an intellectual who did what he thought best to advance the Western Mystery School tradition based on the Judaic Kabbalah and Christian Qabalah. He founded The Builders of the Adytum (B.O.T.A.), which offers correspondence lessons on the Qabalah and Sacred Tarot (which is meant for individual spiritual purposes, mainly for self-realization). Case chose the term Adytum because it means "Inner Shrine," and the B.O.T.A. teaching order recognizes universal truths in the ageless wisdom teachings derived from the ancient mystical root of Judaism and Christianity.)
He followed no teacher exclusively, because he found each teacher tried to explain the ultimate truth (which he had already discovered) in their own way. And he studied many other teachings and read many books by or about many diverse people such as John Lilly M.D., Meher Baba, and Black Elk, the great Native America sage and prophet. Among those he also studied were progressive Christian authorities, including Karen Armstrong, Marcus Borg and John Dominic Crossan, members of the prestigious Jesus Seminar, which is a large group of progressive Christian scholars. And he also learned what "conservative" or "fundamentalist" religious zealots were teaching their flocks, so he would know what kind of dogma and doctrines were being touted.
All these teachers and more recent ones have given him a more full idea of what alternative views there were and are, besides the traditional American Christian view that he was raised with and was portrayed in Hollywood movies in the 1950s (and has been portrayed yet again in more recent movies that strive to revive the canonized Pauline version of Christianity).
However, all of his studies have merely confirmed what he experienced and absorbed in 1971, and they have ultimately confirmed that the same eternal, essential, universal truths are common to all religions. They confirmed how and why all the greatest spiritual teachers throughout history were in tune with the same Divine Light, the same Great Spirit and Supreme Consciousness of eternal, universal truth and divine love that he had directly witnessed, felt, absorbed, and savored — which many people also call the Lord God, Jehovah, Yahweh, Brahman, Tao, Ahura Mazda, Allah, Wakan Tanka, among many other names for the Holy One.
During the time of his spiritual awakening it was a time when the seeds of the coming New Reformation were planted, when a good many young Americans were learning about the universal truths that are at the core of every religion. (And in more recent times he has learned that it was much like had happened in America in the late 1700s and very early 1800s due to "The Enlightenment" period in Europe and America, which resulted in the Founding Father’s insistence on freedom of religion and freedom from the Theocracy that had been institutionalized by the Roman and Anglican churches).
He has never stopped learning. He wanted to learn and study the spiritual and religious works of man because he realized that what he had absorbed emotionally and spiritually was far too overwhelming to grasp intellectually.
And that is why he set out on a path of intellectual and academic learning.
Still, the more he grew in his knowledge of religions, religious traditions and esoteric spiritual teachings, the more he came to think that all he could learn from people was what they thought of God, and he already knew what God is. And, unfortunately, at a certain point he thought he didn't need more education and guidance. He thought he was enlightened and had been reborn of the spirit. However, much later with hindsight and study of scriptures, he realized that he had become foolish and unwittingly covetous and willful.
He realized that having been called by God and having witnessed the Divine Light and reality of God does not make a person enlightened. One becomes enlightened only after a process of spiritual unfoldment which can eventually lead to actual spiritual rebirth. So he understands that even at 74 years old, he is still on the path of return, still learning, understanding that if you think yourself enlightened or wise, you’re not. But he didn't realize that until he was much older.
Being The Naive Fool
Now, going back to the period between 1971 and 1974, he sang in a number of clubs in his home town, and he enjoyed the rewards of his talent, especially from women. He performed sporadically for small audiences as he was finishing college, and after he graduated and earned a teaching credential he started working professionally in 1972 as an educator.
In early 1973 his girlfriend of two years broke up with him because once he had not been exclusive with his affections, and after they parted he grew his hair long and grew a beard again (because he had shaved it off for her), and he reveled again in the free love atmosphere.
But, even though he had so much going for him, materially and physically, it was not enough. He wanted to be able to return to God again, but he still didn’t know how. When he witnessed God in 1971 it had been fortuitous and as if by accident, and he found that no amount of meditation or prayer or study or effort enabled him to repeat the experience. But he kept trying.
However, at that time he did not have the slightest idea that he had been called by God for a mission. He had not developed a "messianic complex" yet. He was merely interested in returning to God, to experience that overwhelming ecstasy again. And, as a psychologist friend of his had told him in 1973, he had become too "enamored by enlightenment."
He was in his own world, and he had not come back "down to earth" yet. So he left his home town and all his family and friends, and set forth on a spiritual pilgrimage. But he was as a fool -- a naive, innocent fool.
(Continued at The Story of the Modern Son of Man: Part 2, which tells how he was stricken and afflicted, according to prophecies, and what he learned following that.)